Reality versus Red Tube: the unfortunate difference between porn and escorting

I can always tell I’m getting my period by the amount of porn I’m masturbating too. It still actually makes me laugh every time this happens. The need to have 2 or 3 orgasms in a day only comes the day before the blood flow. And even during the first few days of pain and cramps I’m still on that red tube looking for ass to mouth threesomes and different scenarios that corrupt “teens” LOL. They have a series called Moms teach sex, ha ha. And always the stepmom fucking the stepson. Watching millenials have sex makes me realize how old I am. But, you do hit the MILF category in porn once you are in your 30s so it's not so hard to be old in porn. It’s funny because nowadays the idea of being attracted to people in the 20s doesn’t really seem practical to me. 1. They usually don’t look like porn stars in real life. And I”m always worried about the reality vs fantasy aspect of things. Nothing is usually as good as it is on porn, although sometimes it is. When I was an escort I got to have sex with clients who were 10-15 years younger than me occasionally. That was always fun. When you get paid to experiment, there is no risk because if it ends up being wonderful it is like getting paid DOUBLE! And, if it doesn’t go well, there is no real loss. I recently went to a sex club and decided I would try fucking 3 guys for the first time. I wasn’t getting paid. I just was feeling something experimental because 2 of the guys were Japanese and I was seeking to find out how i was going to work out. It ended up being the worse experiment of my life, even the 3rd guy wasn’t Japanese but ALL OF THEM made NOT ONE SOUND the whole time. It was like blowing 3 mannequins. Have you ever had the kind of sex where ten minutes into you just wanted to throw in the towel and forget that anything ever started? “Gee, you know what, letttttts just all put our clothes back on and get a beer. This, is uh, not going to work out.” I am really aurally stimulated, meaning I need to hear sounds. But, they need to be genuine which seems to be a big challenge to a lot of guys. Even if they aren’t talkers, they at least have to be BREATHERS meaning that if I put their cock in my mouth, I want to feel a RESPONSE. And needless to say, all three of these dicks were pretty soft and squishy in my presence. There was this nerdy geeky dude that I did NOT want to have sex with at all, but he tagged alongside a cute guy that I liked and I let him participate in the end because I was mostly just into the experiment of it all. I’d been with 2 guys before, even tried to do a porn style DP TWICE in my life and both times one of the guys just couldn’t hang and tapped out, fell out and game over. This is what I mean about porn not being reality and how I know by life experience. Sex Work has given me access to these experiences for money and like I said, even if it doesn’t work out for anyone, I end up getting paid. Also from experience, I know that not all sex work is equal and that porn and escorting is usually worlds apart that sometimes, especially when I’m masturbating I wish and wonder what it would be like to have real professional fuckers in me instead of the regular johns that escorts get most of the time. The ugly nerdy guy was sucking on my pussy like someone trying to eat an orange off a rind. I HATE BEING SUCKED. Anywhere. Do NOT suck my clit or my nipples, i might even get so annoyed I can punch you. I know, some women like that shit. I just watched a Japanese porn and the girl was sucking on some other girls pussy with loud slurping noises that American porn actors never make. I see, this is where this man learned his “technique” from. And I guess when I say I need sounds, I guess I mean, I need the sounds that I LIKE. Not just any old sounds. When I told them I needed to hear them make some noise, the German guy of the group decided to try to make some moaning sounds when he was on top of me, but it was just a bad acting job because his dick wasn’t even inside me! The thing that I am really glad that sex work has allowed me is the ability to RELEASE JUDGMENT about what substandard sexual things are occurring without grossing out or losing my shit. Having a nerdy guy suck me like an orange is an experiment, I’m sure I’ve experienced in sex work before, so I just reverted to escort head space mode. There are possibly hundreds of unattractive dicks I’ve fucked for money and this is how I dealt with it. Total detachment in the moment. The shower in the end erases everything that happened if it wasn’t pleasant. Cleansing whore bath. I loved it every time. But this last 3 man experiment was just FREE SEX WORK. A donation for the losing team. The sinking ship going nowhere for the 45 minutes total that it took from start to finish. I have no idea how long it was, the 2 Japanese guys left as soon as they came and it seemed like they were on me for 15 minutes each. I was their masturbation tissue in human form and I didn’t get paid. All I got was a record of the worst most pathetic sex I’ve EVER HAD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE, and that’s pretty bad considering i’ve clocked 7 years of escorting in my life. Sad, sad, sad, sad. Lucky, I can blog and release the terribleness of it all through my words.